Since before Christmas I've been feeling a little overwhelmed. Not necessarily diabetes-wise, although that little devil has thrown a few curve balls. Highs and lows that make no sense whatsoever! And they stick around for what seems like forever. It makes me tired.
There have been a few things going on at home that have been playing on my mind. My daughter finally got a job, which should be a good thing. That should mean that there is less tension and stress in the home. But it doesn't seem to work that way around here. She works different shifts which put a strain on our Christmas plans. I found out that she has called in "sick" a number of times, when I know for a fact she told me those were "switched shifts". She's not a teenager, she's soon to be 23. But the fact that she is basically living here for free, and I am using my gas to drive her to work, and I find out she's lying is a little annoying to say the least. She needs to move out, but with a huge Student loan hanging over her head she really can't afford to. We are trying to help her out but my husband and I don't always agree. We take turns playing "good cop, bad cop" with her, and it is a strain. Which of course plays out in the ups and downs of the BG's.
Plus I have been so busy. It sounds silly but I feel like I don't have 5 minutes to myself. Between looking after the grandkids, playing taxi, and working at the store 20-odd hours a week, i am drained.
I start my art classes again tomorrow. That at least will be a little "me time". I am really looking forward to that. I find it relaxing. I just wish I had more time to devote to painting. Perhaps some day, when I retire. LOL!
I am trying to organize our spare room. We are going to re-do it so that it serves as an Art Studio for me(see previous paragraph), as well as a place I can just go sit and read or watch TV if I want. I have many ideas for it! I need to rip out the old carpet, put down new flooring, paint it something that adds light to the room. Oh and put in new light fixtures. I have ideas for the work area and the relaxation area. It just requires time that I don't seem able to find, to get things underway. I know it will get done eventually, I just wish I had a magic lamp that I could rub!!
And as I sit here
"Have you got any boxes from work to start packing up that stuff upstairs?" "did you get to the tax office yet this week?" "will you be going to the tax office this week?" "whose picking C up from work?" "do you want to go visit M on your next Saturday off?" "Do you like white for the paint in that room?"
I look in his direction and I say to him,
"I know 2 things for sure. 1- my hair will always be short, and 2- I will always carry a big purse."
He just gave me the strangest look. And with that I'm off to do my homework for tomorrows painting class!