my pledge

we are just over 2/3 of the way through January.  

i haven't written a post looking back over the past year.  i also haven't written a post with my "new year resolutions".

i used to make "resolutions" every New Years Eve.  looking back, i can't think of a single one of the many i've made, that i've kept. 

apparently i am not good at keeping promises to myself.  at least not those made on December 31st.

so i waited until January 20th.  

i had high hopes that this year would be different.  i told myself that i would make a (fill in the blank) to myself.  i wasn't calling it a resolution because i fully believed that was part of the reason for my previous failures.  

so after searching "Resolution" in an online thesaurus,  these were my choices (and you don't have to read them all): 

Moby Thesaurus

resolution
Synonyms and related words:
Z, abandon, ablation, about-face, accommodation, accomplishment, accuracy, act, action, acutance, adaptation, adjustment, aim, alchemy, ambition, anacrusis, analysis, analyzation, anatomizing, anatomy, animus, answer, answering, apodosis, appetence, appetency, appetite, application, ardency, ardor, arrangement, ascertainment, aspiration, assay, assaying, assiduity, assiduousness, assimilation, assumption, atomization, award, bass passage, becoming, biodegradability, biodegradation, blocking, boldness, bourdon, breakdown, breaking down, breaking up, breakup, bridge, bulldog courage, bulldog tenacity, burden, cadence, catastrophe, ceasing, cessation, change, change-over, changelessness, choice, chorus, clearing up, coda, command, commitment, committedness, composition of differences, compromise, conation, conatus, concentration, conclusion, concurrent resolution, condemnation, consideration, constancy, constitution, consummation, conversion, corrosion, corruption, counsel, crack of doom, cracking, crumbling, culmination, curtain, curtains, dauntlessness, death, decay, decease, decidedness, decipherment, decision, decoding, decomposition, decree, dedication, degradability, degradation, deliberateness, deliberation, deliverance, denouement, desideration, desideratum, design, desire, destination, destiny, detailing, determination, development, devotedness, devotion, devoutness, diaeresis, diagnosis, dictum, dilapidation, diligence, discretion, discrimination, disentanglement, disintegration, disjunction, disorganization, disposition, dissection, dissolution, division, docimasy, dogged perseverance, doggedness, doom, earnestness, effect, effort, enaction, enactment, end, end point, end result, endeavor, ending, endurance, engrossment, enumeration, envoi, epilogue, erosion, eschatology, exactitude, exactness, exertion, expiration, explanation, explication, exposition, faith, faithfulness, fancy, fate, fervency, fervidness, fervor, fidelity, figure, final solution, final twitch, final words, finale, finality, finding, finding-out, fineness, finis, finish, fire, firmness, fixed purpose, fixedness, flip-flop, folderol, fortitude, free choice, free will, function, gameness, gaminess, goal, gravimetric analysis, grittiness, growth, hardihood, hardiness, harmonic close, harmonization, heartiness, heat, heatedness, idea, immutability, impassionedness, improper suggestion, inclination, incoherence, indecent proposal, indefatigability, industriousness, industry, inflexibility, insistence, insistency, instance, instrumentation, intendment, intensity, intent, intention, intentness, interlude, intermezzo, interpretation, intonation, introductory phrase, irreversibility, issue, itemization, izzard, joint resolution, judgement, lapse, last, last breath, last gasp, last things, last trumpet, last words, latter end, lawmaking, legislation, legislature, liking, loyalty, lust, meaning, measure, mettlesomeness, mildew, mind, modulation, mold, motion, motive, movement, musical phrase, musical sentence, naturalization, nerviness, nisus, notion, oath, objective, obligation, obstinacy, omega, orchestration, order, ornament, outcome, oxidation, oxidization, parsing, part, pass, passage, passing, passion, passionateness, patience, patience of Job, payoff, period, permanence, peroration, perseverance, persistence, persistency, pertinaciousness, pertinacity, phrase, phrasing, plan, pleasure, pledge, plodding, pluckiness, plugging, point, precedent, precision, preoccupation, preparation, prognosis, progress, project, promise, pronouncement, proposal, proposition, prospectus, proximate analysis, purpose, purposefulness, quantitative analysis, quietus, ravages of time, re-formation, reason, reconversion, reduction, reduction to elements, refrain, relentlessness, request, resoluteness, resolve, resolving, response, resting place, result, reversal, riddling, ritornello, ruling, rust, sake, scansion, schematization, section, sedulity, sedulousness, segmentation, semimicroanalysis, sentence, separation, seriousness, setting, settlement, sexual desire, sharpness, shift, sincerity, single-mindedness, singleness of purpose, slogging, solution, solving, sorting out, spirit, spoilage, spunkiness, stability, stamina, stanza, statement, staunchness, staying power, steadfastness, steadiness, stick-to-itiveness, stoppage, stopping place, strain, striving, struggle, stubbornness, study, subdivision, suggestion, suspension, swan song, switch, switch-over, tailpiece, tenaciousness, tenacity, term, terminal, termination, terminus, terms, tirelessness, tone painting, transcription, transformation, transit, transition, turning into, tutti, tutti passage, unalterability, unchangeability, undertaking, unraveling, unremittingness, unriddling, unscrambling, unspinning, unswerving attention, untangling, untwisting, unweaving, upshot, variation, vehemence, velleity, verdict, verse, view, volition, volte-face, vow, warmth, wear, wear and tear, will, will power, windup, wish, word of honor, working, working-out, zeal  


one kind of jumped off the page.  PLEDGE  hmmm  i like this one.  kind of reminds of being a Girl Guide, pledges and such.

so i made a pledge to myself.  i realized that i needed to add some exercise into my day.  i knew that my BG's would be thankful.  i knew, too, that my emotions would thank me.  i would feel stronger, more self confident, i might even lose some weight.  overall, i would just feel better.

i pledged that i would get up that half hour earlier on monday, and head down to the basement.  i would dust off that treadmill and i would walk for 1/2 an hour.  i figured that if i stuck the ipod on and the earbuds in i could listen to 10 songs (an average 3min/song) and walk.  it would be easy peasy!!

so i went to bed on sunday night, fully pledged!  i set my alarm for 1/2 an hour earlier that i normally do, and i went to sleep fully prepared and pumped about my new pledge. 

and then it was monday morning and the alarm was buzzing away.  i hit the snooze button, saying to myself as i did it "i will walk for 25 minutes".  five minutes later i hit that snooze button again all the while saying "i will walk for 20 minutes."  this continued until about 45 minutes after i hit the button the first time.  each time i felt a little  more guilt.  and by the time i actually got up, it was too late to dust off that stupid treadmill.  

so now i am just totally disappointed with myself.  i couldn't even haul my ass out of bed once!!  not even once!!

so tonight when i go to bed, i will once again pledge to get up 1/2 an hour earlier than i normally would.  and tomorrow i will make it to the basement, sans earbuds and ipod and i will walk.

  

                               MY PLEDGE

i pledge...to haul my ass

    down the stairs and past the tass(imo)

 onto the treadmill i will climb

    and walk while singing,  i'll feel fine

       oh happy will by BG's be, my weight will drop

and hopefully

soon i'll feel like  a

 brand new me!
and that my friends is
MY PLEDGE 

                


 
**disclosure---i am not a poet, i do not claim to be a poet, and i do not make any money writing poetry!
have a nice day!!